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July 30, 2009 at 2:17 pm · Filed under Math, Nick Lachey

Now I know why I’ve been wasting my life away -.-

Watch my life pass me by
in the rearview mirror
Pictures frozen in time
are becoming clearer
I don’t wanna waste another day
Stuck in the shadow of my mistakes
yeah

’cause I want you
and I feel you
crawling underneath my skin
a hunger
like a burning
to find the place I’ve never been
now I’m broken
and I’m fading
I’m half the man I thought I would be
But you can have
What’s left of me

I’ve been dying inside
Little by little
Nowhere to go
But goin’ out of my mind
In endless circles
runnin’ from myself until
You gave me a reason for standing still

And I want you
and I feel you
crawling underneath my skin
a hunger
like a burning
to find the place I’ve never been
now I’m broken
and I’m fading
I’m half the man I thought I would be
But you can have
What’s left of me

Falling faster
Barely breathing
Give me somethin’ to believe in
Tell me it’s not all in my head

Take what’s left of this man
Make me whole once again

’cause I want you
and I feel you
crawling underneath my skin
a hunger
like a burning
to find the place I’ve never been
now I’m broken
and I’m fading
I’m half the man I thought I would be
You can have
All that’s left
Yeah, yeah, yeah
What’s left of me

I’ve been dying inside you see
I’m going out of my mind
Out of my mind
I’m just runnin’ in circles all the time
Will you take what’s left
Will you take what’s left
Will you take what’s left
Of me
Just runnin’ in circles in my mind
Will you take what’s left
Will you take what’s left
Will you take what’s left of me
Take what’s left of me

Heheh I think every post’s gonna have a blockquote already ^^

Okay tmr’s my math test WISH ME LUCK KTHXBYE.

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July 30, 2009 at 2:17 pm · Filed under Math, Nick Lachey

Now I know why I’ve been wasting my life away -.-

Watch my life pass me by
in the rearview mirror
Pictures frozen in time
are becoming clearer
I don’t wanna waste another day
Stuck in the shadow of my mistakes
yeah

’cause I want you
and I feel you
crawling underneath my skin
a hunger
like a burning
to find the place I’ve never been
now I’m broken
and I’m fading
I’m half the man I thought I would be
But you can have
What’s left of me

I’ve been dying inside
Little by little
Nowhere to go
But goin’ out of my mind
In endless circles
runnin’ from myself until
You gave me a reason for standing still

And I want you
and I feel you
crawling underneath my skin
a hunger
like a burning
to find the place I’ve never been
now I’m broken
and I’m fading
I’m half the man I thought I would be
But you can have
What’s left of me

Falling faster
Barely breathing
Give me somethin’ to believe in
Tell me it’s not all in my head

Take what’s left of this man
Make me whole once again

’cause I want you
and I feel you
crawling underneath my skin
a hunger
like a burning
to find the place I’ve never been
now I’m broken
and I’m fading
I’m half the man I thought I would be
You can have
All that’s left
Yeah, yeah, yeah
What’s left of me

I’ve been dying inside you see
I’m going out of my mind
Out of my mind
I’m just runnin’ in circles all the time
Will you take what’s left
Will you take what’s left
Will you take what’s left
Of me
Just runnin’ in circles in my mind
Will you take what’s left
Will you take what’s left
Will you take what’s left of me
Take what’s left of me

Heheh I think every post’s gonna have a blockquote already ^^

Okay tmr’s my math test WISH ME LUCK KTHXBYE.

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Difference.

July 30, 2009 at 9:52 am · Filed under Life

“Right now I feel guilty to be alive. Why? Because I’m wasting it. I’ve been given this life and all I do is mope it away.”

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Kaixin Shengtian ^^

July 28, 2009 at 2:07 pm · Filed under birthday, Kelly

Hi Kelly Zhang Ye Yi :D


Hahaha now that this blog is privated I can say a lot of stuff ley *does the cadbury advertisement*

HEEEEEEEEEEE ^^

Okay anyway,
I just want to thank you for all the times you’ve been there for me.
Inclusive of:
-When you flirt openly w Aloyston IN FRONT OF ME
-WHEN YOU DENY ME FUNKEY WUNKEY FOR NO REASON
-When you’re being incredible lame and completely UN-funny
-ETC.

Whether I’m happy/upset/emo/depressed/crazy/zihigh/being plain weird, you’ve always been so accepting. I (L) you to bits, boyf/girlf! :D
Thank you v v v v v v v much! And I’ll always be here for you just like I know you’ll always be there for me.

BFFN, BFFs!

BOOBOO LUV YOU. (:

I will never let you fall
I’ll stand up with you forever
I’ll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It’s ok. It’s ok. It’s ok.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I’ll be the one

I will never let you fall
I’ll stand up with you forever
I’ll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

HAPPY SWEET 15TH BIRTHDAY KELLY!

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Let me hear your heart beat for me.

July 26, 2009 at 10:47 am · Filed under Blockquote, Smses

Hi :D

Kelly made Aloyston sing to me on the phone, so I’m happy and in a good mood now :) HAHAHA. But it was damn funny ‘cos it was in chinese and it was Aloyston heeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. ^^
I have no idea what to post right now but I discovered SMSYO thru Yunyi and it’s damn cool ‘cos now I can update my Facebook/Twitter statuses via sms and it’s completely free and I HAVE UNLIMITED SMSES SO I GUESS YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS. 
:D

This is my new hobby. I watch my life depart minute by minute. I anticipate the end of everything and anything — a conversation, a class, track practice, darkness — only to be left with more clock-watching to take its place. I’m continually waiting for something better that never comes. Maybe it would help if I knew what I wanted.
Until I figure that out, I guess I’m waiting for the end of my sophomore year so summer can start, so I can wait for that to end so I can go back to school and do the waiting game for another two years until I graduate and finally escape to college, where I’m hoping to begin my “real life.” Whatever that is.

I absolutely love blockquotes, don’t you?

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Peeeeeeek-a-bull(s)!

July 25, 2009 at 2:14 pm · Filed under pictures

HAHHAHAHAHA THIS IS A BIG JOKEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE :D :D :D

Anyway this is for Pei Jia ^^

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Sloppy Firsts.

July 25, 2009 at 9:45 am · Filed under Thoughts

When you say too much about anything important, it always ends up sounding more trivial than it is. Words trash it.

After all, you can only be in a bad mood for so long before you have to face up to the fact that it isn’t a bad mood at all. It’s just your sucky personality.


“Life sucks, then you die.”

=/

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A Letter to God.

July 24, 2009 at 2:36 pm · Filed under Pieces, Prayer, Sum 41

Dear God,

I think I need a psychiatrist. I have serious moodswings. I’m serious! I was like uber happy about 5 seconds ago, and now I feel like crying. I don’t know why either. ):
Daddy, sometimes I really wish you could just be there and hug me and keep me there in your arms and never let me go, because then I’ll feel loved forever and ever and ever. Actually I don’t know what love is. What’s it like to love someone unconditionally? 
I DON’T KNOW WHAT I’M FEELING NOW. Lord, I know you know. I don’t know what to do, what to say, what to think. This is what I’m feeling: Sad/Happy/Neutral/Tired/Restless/Silent/Emotionless/Turmoil/Have I mentioned Neutral?
I miss 2D a lot. I miss the peace they give me, I miss the encouragement they provide, I miss the warmth they exude, I miss their presence. I miss their laughs, I miss bullying them, I miss being bullied, I miss being annoyed, I miss being scolded by Li Jie, I miss all the wonderful times we’ve wasted our time away in Mrs Look’s class, I miss all the times we’ve made fun of Chew Hwee, I miss all the secret smiles on Mrs Goh’s face. I miss the friendship and closeness we shared, I miss all of them.
When in those days, there was nothing to care about, when everything was prepared for you, when all you needed to do was simply to play along. There was always somebody looking after you, someone managing all your affairs, somebody guiding you along. But suddenly everything’s been snatched away. Everybody has such high expectations of you but you don’t even know where/how/if you should start. You’re not even sure if it’s you that’s supposed to take the first step out. You just don’t know. What/when/where/who/why/how.
I need reassurances so bad, so bad. But how come it seems as though I’m always the one providing advice to others? This is a joke. I can’t even help myself; who am I to help others?! I don’t even know what’s wrong with me, how am I supposed to go about helping myself?! God, God, God, I need you desperately.
I’m so lost and so confused. I know I have all these wonderful people around me who’re there, but I can’t burden them with all these. It’s not fair. And even then, the things that they can do are still only so much. There’s nobody else besides you, Lord, that can help me. Not even myself. I’m in too deep already.
I’m sure you know what my heart wants/needs to say. The things that I’m now trying to express into words but simply can’t. I feel so constrained, no not me. My heart feels so constricted, like a boa eating an elephant. My back is aching, my neck is throbbing, my eyes are watering, my head is spinning, but still you’re there. I wish sometimes that my heart was made of ice, because then I’d be numb to everything. I don’t even need a flexible rubber heart to stretch to accommodate all these emotions, because if I had a heart of ice, I wouldn’t feel anything. Nothing at all. How nice. Perhaps.
There it goes again. 
I shiver.
Lord. I am lost.
There’s so many things to think about, I CAN’T TAKE IT ANYMORE.
CCA/Studies/Friendships/Family/Church/Life – I’m only 15 I’m not made to handle all this!!!!!
Maybe I’m just not good enough. I’m not up to it. I overestimated myself. I think too highly of myself. I’m too ambitious for my own good. Like Hitler. 
Over-ambitiousness = Downfall
My neck is aching horribly. How. Lord, how. I don’t know.
I tried to be perfect,
But nothing was worth it,
I don’t believe it makes me real.
I thought it’d be easy,
But no one believes me,
I meant all the things I said.
If you believe it’s in my soul,
I’d say all the words that I know,
Just to see if it would show,
That I’m trying to let you know,
That I’m better off on my own.
This place is so empty,
My thoughts are so tempting,
I don’t know how it got so bad.
Sometimes it’s so crazy,
that nothing can save me,
But it’s the only thing that I have.
If you believe it’s in my soul,
I’d say all the words that I know,
Just to see if it would show,
That I’m trying to let you know,
That I’m better off on my own.
On my own…
I tried to be perfect,
It just wasn’t worth it,
Nothing could ever be so wrong.
It’s hard to believe me,
It never gets easy,
I guess I knew that all along.
If you believe it’s in my soul,
I’d say all the words that I know,
Just to see if it would show,
That I’m trying to let you know,
That I’m better off on my own.
It just wasn’t worth it. Perhaps neither am I.
I lift my life into your hands, Lord. You mould me and make me. And now I surrender my whole being to you Lord. I pray that you’ll heal my soul and make me whole again. Touch my heart, change me anew. Mend my broken, broken soul.
And I pray all this in Jesus’ most precious name,
Amen.

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Bruce Lam ^^

July 23, 2009 at 2:55 pm · Filed under Plaza Singapure, Sylvia

Hi had a great day out with Sylvia today :D Caught up a lot and I realised actually I’m a really funny person HAHAHA.

Anyway I totally (L) this quote I got from TV Mobile on 175.

“To forgive is to set a prisoner free, and discover that the prisoner was you.”

SHIOK NOT. Wah I damn tired now ttytmr.

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Bruce Lam ^^

July 23, 2009 at 2:55 pm · Filed under Plaza Singapure, Sylvia

Hi had a great day out with Sylvia today :D Caught up a lot and I realised actually I’m a really funny person HAHAHA.

Anyway I totally (L) this quote I got from TV Mobile on 175.

“To forgive is to set a prisoner free, and discover that the prisoner was you.”

SHIOK NOT. Wah I damn tired now ttytmr.

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